ALL in ALL

All in ALL May 2010 was very eventfull and Fun.... Life has been very CRAZY for all of us and especially me while juggling two different jobs but loving them both:) I have to say that my design job gets me just a bit more happy and thrilled cuz it is my passion... I love working with Susie and so thankful for all the oppotunities she has given me and Especially for my NEW job... I am now going out on my own with her help when neded, but i get to start the project from Construction to finish decor.. Wowzers am i happy... This is what i have been dreaming of.. The project is not small but VERY LARGE... so I am going to be Very busy and cannot wait for this fantastic opportunity... Thanks Susie, you are Amazing to me:)
     Now for June, the kids are out for summer and are getting to enjoy some GREAT time in Sunny California. That's right, my parents have asked and offered to have my two kiddos for as long as they can - they now it has been a bit stressful for me with working so much and all the juggling they are going thru so when i asked if they would like to go stay with Grandma and Gramps Screams came from their mouths with Joy!!! I guess that's a YES... Skyler instantly ran upstairs, called my mom and said- " Can I start packing NOW and When will you be here"..lol - YUP she is the Most happy about this... She has the most awesome relationship not only with my mom but my dad, it;s almost like watching me as a kiddo with my daddy- i always get a kick out of watching the two of them together- those two are HILARIOUS most of the time... I love seeing her with my mom and watching her snuggle up to her like i used to at night when watching a movie. My mom loves to do both her grandaughters nails, hair, and letting them put on her favorite lipstick:) As my mom would say" a women should never leave without her face on"....

The end of the 7th Birthday Bash... Can we say Presents....

She just Loves Anything... but really was excited for her camelback, this because she doesn't have to share with Dad anymore:)

On to dessert..

Fogurts our name and Yogurts are game...

So this we ALL love... Skyler could eat here 10 times a day!!!!

After our fun time at frogurt we heade back to the house for some play time and then family came over for yummy barbeque and cake... It was definitely a GREAT DAY:)

Now on to my BEAUTIFUL SKYLER PAIGE.....

Since Last year for her birthday I went WAY overboard I decided and so did my wallet that this year would be mellow but still FUN:)

We took Skyler and her cousin Lillie along with her Fabulous Big Bro Tallyn to her Favorite place... Color Me Mine!! The kiddos all had a blast and really enjoyed creating their very own masterpieces... here's just a fe snap shots....

My baby Girl Turns 7... and this is what she GOT!

Meet KODA....

Skyler has been asking for a dog since i did the meanest thing EVER and got rid of our other dog.... He atleast went to a good home, but let's face it- Puppys are a pain.... I am doing ALOT of bittng my tongue and leaving the room when it tinkles ( all because I freak out with messes- especially that kind) and hoping that soon enough it too will pass and BEHOLD a GREAT DOG will appear:)

I am praying for it too be SOONER than LATER.....

CATCH UP Time....

So in the begining of May my Friend Heather invited me for a Fabulous Girls Weekend Away to lovely St. George, Utah... Oh how i enjoyed myself..... I really needed this getaway and I had So much fun with all her Friends- they all made me feel like I fit right in:) Did  i mention The WARMTH that we LOVED so... fabulous!

We did escape one night and headed on down to Vegas Baby..... and the stories we have to tell.... but you know What happens in Vegas, Stays in Vegas- lol

Thank you All things thrifty - hope you don't mind sharing:)

All these picture I got from the blog All things thrifty... she asked if their were any takers on sharing this Beautiful home in St. George----- UM I am thinking I will offer myself as a roommate----- wouldn't you:)
Thanks for the pictures I am IN LOVE TOO:) Check out her blog for Fantastic ideas... www.allthingsthrifty.com I better not forget to thank her too:) Happy Friday to ALL...jb

I have been searching for a setee like this forEVER- problem.... WAY TOOOOOOO much $$$$$

This is my FAVORITE ROOM.... Some day fo sho:)

Oh my goodness.... This Screams my name..... I'm in LOVE Again!!!

Don't forget about the cute little shop around the corner....

Just incase you forgot about Persnickety Clothing at South Towne Mall,

here is another plug w/link to take you there...:) We are having a HUGE EVENT that i am planning and creating oh so well... on May 8th stop on by you will be GLAD you did and stay tunned for more details....

visit our new blog just for the store... http://www.persnicketyclothingsouthtowne.blogspot.com/

I am falling in love with......

I am not sure as to why my taste is changing SOOOO much but this once lover of country as gone back to modern and now adding a bit of traditional and shabby chic.... Seriously?????

I am finding that the vintage bird prints are REALLY catching my eye.

I think I am struggling a bit too cuz I have a GIGANTIC EMPTY formal living room and no $$$$ to decorate but , ahh the visions in my head are superb:)

Soon... Very SOON i will be able to buy a few of these and a few of those- what are they you ask.... Wait and SEE... I first need to plant the money tree in my back yard then i will post AWAY!!!!

Just a thought or TWO...

SO on this Monday I have found myself a bit perplexed...Why? Well, lately I think I have so many thoughts and emotions running that I cannnot cath up or even really put them into words.... All I know is I am Frustrated and Sad. I really don't even know where to begin except at this point in time I wish I had a fortune teller and her magic crystal ball to give me the answers and the guidence one kinda needs to get through her days..... I work ALOT, not that I am complaining but this is something I really didn't think I would do nor do I really want to do... although I am SO Grateful for my job and all it does for me I do however see that my kids are not getting the needed or wanted attention they SO deserve from their mother.... the truth is by the time I get home I just want to hide or go to my room and sit down.... I think all the stess of being the only bread winner in this CRAZY situation I am in is really getting to me.... I am SO disappointed in my actions and in me as a person in general lately that I need to REALLY contemplate the reality and what is REALLY worth???? Skyler was hugging on me and looked up at me and said" Mommy, can you PLEASE stop working so much and be home for me when I get home from school, because I just miss you and hate coming home without you here".... um ya I felt REAL good after that one.... I realized that for all these years when i was so lucky to be home and their for my kiddos no matter what that they NOTICED me and loved me being there for them..... I no longer get to go to school programs, help out in class, go on field trips, or just sit back and watch them come out of school after a long day..... I instead get to say" i am sorry your sick but you have to go to school, or I can't help at class, or What am I supposed to do when I have to work.... I know there are millions of women out there that have to make the very same sacrifices as me and even more just to provide but THIS is not what I agreed to and I am SOOOOOO mad that i could just scream!!!! For the past several months I just want to leave and go it alone ( with kiddos of course) but how will i survive? Scott and I are like oil and vinegar no matter how hard you try to mix them they don't make a good sauce... why does he have to be so dishonest and hurt me and better yet WHY do I alow him too? I guess some would say I am weak and others well- I know but won't comment... The sadest part is our kiddos can read him like a book and always say to me " MOM, why does dad never tell the truth and always say one thing and do the opposite, but you always keep your word".... how do you tell your children to listen with their ears and with their hearts but make good choices and you will be happy... as parents we are here to teach our children and I feel like no matter what I teach I have to make an apology at the same time.... I know it wrong to talk about someone when they cannot defend themself but with this I have had to learn a VERY Valuable lesson.... Trust is earned and not always Deserved..... I will ALWAYS do what I can to teach my children this and be a good example at the same time because I truely believe that they will learn this and now the importance of the meaning.... I hope my children also know that I will always be honest with them and never lie to them. Another thing I tell my kiddos is that Liars Never Prosper..... I am so against lying and it hurts my heart and my soul when i try to always believe in someone but yet get hurt at the same time..... This I feel is why I have become so hard and sassy at times..... I came across this quote tonight and thought it was so Perfect for me, i love to laugh and be happy and more important I love to watch my kiddos be creative and find their TRUE character come out- I think my favorite time of day is when we are all laughing and being silly..." Laughter is.. Sunshine in the heart and wings on the soul"..... LOVE IT:) Happy Monday and with this I wish Tuesday even better, and if not- Laugh a little no matter what and you too might for a moment have a happy heart......

for the love of blogging...

Okay, I must admit, lately I have become OBSESSED with following and adding all sorts of new blogs....who knew there was so  much fantastic talent, insight, and great thought out there in this great land. I am the first to admit my blog has NOTHING any all of you out there and because of you I am getting SO inspired but what I can do with not only my home but with Everything out there... LOVE IT!! I find myself in my spare time (when that might be ) reading..reading..clicking...readinf some more- my oh my I want to get my groove on and get things done! I have a goal- house is first priority--redifining myself second and well let's just face it everything else will come next.... I am on a path of inspiration and no one shall get in my way( and that includes you Scott) ha ha ha well I might need his help just a bit- ah but he loves it-NOT ( i just like to make him think it's a good thing)... I have already startes on my sweetie pies room: Theme.... Shabby chic with a horse twist( her thoughts not mine). As I thought how in the world am i going to incorporate the beauty of shabby chic with the rustic feel of horses i did the unspeakable.... painted all the horse stuff tallyn didn't want in his room anymore PINK- WORKED PERFECTLY!!! now I just have to finish her bedding and some wall decor then I will post some pics for you to see.... I have said it many times, sky and I have a bit of country running through our souls- we both would LOVE to have a horse but daddy says " HELL to the NO", go figure, but RC cars are totally aloud to take over my empty living room..... Don't worry sky- mommy will figure it out- one day I promise a ranch house for just us( oh and the ranch hen to clean all the stuff up---ha ha , who am I kidding, I don't do horse poop!!!

for the love of blogging...

Well stil cute minus all their frozen toes...

I love having family and I only wish there were more of us with a little less contention... Sometimes it is a bit hard knowing that we are all trying to be a happy family but that also Scott and I aren't married anymore- things are definitely different- I think we all try a bit harder to push through and make an effort but I still sit back and wish that all our family memories were happy and filled with laughter--- I guess this is what comes with life- heartache, joy, laughter, love ,sadness, peace, but atleast we have beautiful children to bring us ALL JOY:)

Did I mention....

I could not have picked a more FREEZING DAY to have done Outdoor pictures in UTAH- WOW it was bitter and boy oh boy the kiddos were troopers:)

Stay tuned for the next one - they were DONE and chilled to the bone..lol